Citizen Of Earth
Written by Paul Landis Delaune
I
am a citizen of Earth. My name and where I abide upon this sphere
is of no importance.
What
is important is I am one who grappled with the tenuous nature of my own
mortality.
Into
the jaws of death have I gazed and upon my injured body do I bear the scars
of Death’s
cold
touch. Upon the edge of the abyss did I linger as Heaven and Hell
struggled
for possession of my living soul.
Strong was my will to live and unyielding the zeal of my spirit. The Fates
decreed my survival
and
posterity, to their wisdom am I indebted. However, the overbearing
shock of the ordeal
weighed
heavy upon my shoulders and at times following my life’s rescue did I foolishly
contemplate
the
undoing of my salvation.
Upon the edge of my destruction – within the darkness did I lose my sense
of self. I was a child
seeking
to understand the mysteries of my manhood. In one sudden incident
was my life
transformed
and I was thrust into a realm beyond my comprehension. For a decade
I wrestled
with
the heritage of my past and the apprehension of a vague, alien future.
In my anxiety I contemplated quenching my thirst for peace with the bitter,
muddy waters of
Jordan.
Only the fear of venturing further into this unknown stayed my hand and
forced me to drink
from
the cup of life, however timid I may have been. On an unseen path
did I venture, for few
had
walked where I must go; none could lead me.
I walked alone, reluctantly, but it had to be so. Still, along the
way there were others who lent a
helping
hand and words of encouragement. Often steep was my path, uncertain
my footing. Fearful
was
I of what lay around every bend. But with each backward glance, each
pause in my way, did I
marvel
at my progress from the deep valley far below.
Then a miracle occurred. The child became a man. From the summit
of a mountain do I now
gaze
down at the cloudbank shielding my eyes from the gaping pit in which I
nearly met my undoing.
Turning,
do I see the distant peaks towering above my sudden lowly appearing vantage
point.
No
longer does the boy fear the darkness of his own shadow, for instead does
the man anxiously
seek
the glory of his next opportunity to continue his life’s trek to new heights.
From here I muse over the foolishness of my kind. Man has achieved
the means to render the
extinction
of his species as well as thedestruction of his world’s wealth. He
gives little in return
but
hiswaste and the death of his own making. He plans the demise of
his enemies and plots to
steal
the dignity of his brother.
Will Man burn his cradle and make desolate the womb of his birth? Will
he undo the perfect
handiwork
of the gods and despoil the prosperity of his heritage? Will he continue
to hate his
brother
and to war against those who oppose him? Will he continue to ignore
the
groaning
of his spirit and eschew the guidance of divine counsel?
I remember when, in my youth, I lay upon a hillock and gazed at the bright
stars twinkling in
the
black sky. I longed to soar up into the airless void beyond Earth’s
protective atmosphere
to
explore and learn what wonders and mysteries lie in the heart of Space.
I wished to play
among
the stars and gaze upon the sun from a star’s distance.
But now, as a man, do I better understand the infinite vastness of Space.
In this emptiness
there
is loneliness beyond Man’s comprehension. Fear of such a lonely and
empty environment,
as
well as the inability to gaze into the wide, friendly sky of Earth, have
tempered my desire to venture
into
this inhospitable darkness. No more do the stars beckon my spirit
to them; I am content to leave
that
wonder languishing in its ignorance. Such yearnings are for the more
adventurous of heart.
My longings, my adventures, can all be fulfilled here, on Earth. For Earth
is the object of my
greatest
fascination and happiness. To gaze upon the brightness of the sun’s
glory in the blue
sky
and to wander in its warmth – this is my greatest joy.
But what of Mankind? When will Man realize the precious glory of
this blessed planet?
Does
he understand its finiteness in the panorama of a hostile universe?
Where else may he find
such
a loving and generous home? To where in the multitude of lights in
the night-sky can
he
prosper? Does he know where he will go when there is nowhere he can
go?